Phill and Jamie, 2006.
© Copyright Libitina 2006.

I know we can never turn back the lost time
To a time that I was true to myself and you,
But the older I get I realize the crime
Was in me leaving and not staying to see it through,
I felt I had no duty where there really was one,
I wanted to live my life in a way that I could have done,
When I should have owed more than this to both of us,
If in my feelings I had set more trust.

In wish not to harm you, all my hopes died,
I tried to save you from pain and so much more,
Doomed by my ideals so I never paused
To see what joy there’d be if I had just tried.

The knowledge I have now I didn’t have then,
I undermined my words, I didn’t see the lies,
Assailed by vain thoughts of lesser men,
Dreams I left broken were meant to keep me tied
To the life I’ll always want and ever will,
In retreating within myself all the truth was killed,
The days have gone by that I would really have back
Unspoiled by self worth and with pride still intact.